A wedding or two, lots of flights for work, seeing good friends all over the state, many drunken (and often regrettable) nights, got a new president, lots of ridiculously good (and usually unhealthy, yet never regrettable) food, moved into a new house, began living life in HD, finally returned my Netflix, lots of driving for work, began listening to audiobooks (Jack Reacher ftw), got a Twitter (and still don’t know what it’s for), started playing WoW (I know, I know), watched a ton of hockey, got in multiple car accidents, saw some amazing concerts, commissioned a beautiful piece of art for the first time in my life…

…and then we lost my dad.

Out of nowhere, life changed drastically and permanently and it still hasn’t sunk in yet. Every morning I fully expect him to call me and yell at me for sleeping in and not being at work. I sit on his couch, drinking his liquor, imagining him coming home from work at any moment. I’m in a very surreal place and don’t know what to say or what to think.

This is not a summary of my thoughts on the matter, this is merely an update. When I know what to think, I imagine I will be more forthcoming. But how do you eulogize someone that you can’t admit is gone? How do you eulogize someone that did more in his life than most can even dream of? How do you eulogize someone that meant so much to so many in largely intangible and indescribable ways?

I’m leaving town tomorrow for Indianapolis to accompany Debra to a Split Lip/Chamberlain reunion concert. I only bought a one-way ticket, because I don’t know where life will push me after that. Maybe I will update from the road or maybe it will be another six months. Either way, I have something to find and I’m not sure what it is or where to begin looking. Until we meet again.